Hi I've been trying to reply yo your msg, but it won't let me post it!!! Feeling jealous is completely normal- it would be abnormal if you didn't. I think you would feel it no matter who it was- she still your bezzie mate and hopefully you'l be able to share you own news soon. Weight and age - who cares- I think a woman of 70 just had twins!!!! I used to be a size 10 before kids and now a 16- I have an abundance of stretch marks that the makers of sat nav used in their designs!!! What annoys me the ost is people don't understand what its like- the desperation of Af coming ( I think she is about to make an untimely visit here- shes relly not wanted ). Luckily we do here- I think I would go nutty if the site didn't exist. So don't feel guilty for feeling jealous and don't apologise for getting it off your chest- thats what we are here for and we all do it!!! Take care xxx lol xxxx